Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
And subscribe to my channel! de-visions.com/nameof-danisnotonfire (lol)
Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to de-visions.com/nameof-AmazingPhil for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka twitter.com/swatercolour
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod incompetech.com
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:

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  • The hardest part of this video for dan was probably including the clip of hello internet

    Lily HudsonLily HudsonVor 2 Stunden
  • And who the F#@@ CARES????

    Malachy SmithMalachy SmithVor 3 Stunden
  • I’m about to go into my second year of secondary school and I was outed at the start of the school year by my now girlfriend and I know I’ve got dark times coming but I’m going to take the good times now and I may be young but I relate to this so much

    Meep 17Meep 17Vor 4 Stunden
  • Thx so much for this video I needed it

    Camryn EvansCamryn EvansVor 4 Stunden
  • 6:41 WTF I-

    — rosiechim— rosiechimVor 4 Stunden
  • Im so confised . I swear 2 god that this used to be 42 mins not 45 !!!!

    Kirsten McfarlaneKirsten McfarlaneVor 4 Stunden
  • The 13th of June is officially Dan Howell Day

    Bonnie DaviesBonnie DaviesVor 5 Stunden
  • You’s a bitch

    Meme MasterMeme MasterVor 5 Stunden
  • Thanks for the G note

    TaleahTaleahVor 6 Stunden
  • Haha okay but when are you bringing the sexy endscreen dance back? Nah I’m jk I love you a lot and accept you. But seriously though I miss the endscreen dance ;(

    JujuJujuVor 7 Stunden
  • Happy you could do this!!! Love you so much and can’t wait to see where you go!!💞💞

    Katt Murray-ToddKatt Murray-ToddVor 8 Stunden
  • jeez that clap at 7:00. This is amazing work Dan, and well done!

    Alex ByronAlex ByronVor 8 Stunden
  • I’m still coming back to watch this..

    Julianna JJulianna JVor 8 Stunden
  • I love this. Thank you x

    Erin HaugheyErin HaugheyVor 10 Stunden
  • We're here for you Dan, through and through. You should feel comfortable with who you are.

    8-bit Zoey8-bit ZoeyVor 12 Stunden
  • emo phase is the best!!!!!! im still going through this phase and i LOVE IT!!

    E PittardE PittardVor 15 Stunden
  • Don’t be afraid. We love you

    Gudinichka OtpGudinichka OtpVor 17 Stunden
  • How you bring light, humor, tell a story, and shine hope on people struggling all in one video

    Natalie KlotzbeacherNatalie KlotzbeacherVor 19 Stunden
  • Phil, thank you. This is really relatable to me and I really appreciate you doing this.

    Walchen -_-Walchen -_-Vor 20 Stunden
    • Phil?

      The KeelThe KeelVor 5 Stunden
  • Probably watched this like 30 times since he released this video. Yes im addicted

    Emu NebulaEmu NebulaVor 20 Stunden
  • I’ve been going something very similar and honestly this video has helped sooooooo much

    SwirlcordSwirlcordVor 23 Stunden
  • No one: ABSOLUTELY no one: Me: hmmm... I have to wake up early in the morning to undergo some torture that people like to call band camp. It's 11:27 at night. TIME TO WATCH A 45 MINUTE VIDEO!!!

    Savannah TomsSavannah TomsVor 23 Stunden
  • "Im confused and sad and horny" i feel that man

    Jay BJay BVor 23 Stunden
  • I kept telling myself I'd watch this fully when it first cam eout and kept forgetting until now. But god this made me feel so guilty for being a huge phannie back in the day. To be fair I quit all that way back in 2014 when I realized shipping human beings is gross and messed up bc it does absolutely lead to the exact shit Dan mentioned. Overall this was such an amazing video and you have such a huge support behind you Dan!

    Arden McBrideArden McBrideVor Tag
  • Me 10:04

    joao santosjoao santosVor Tag
  • It’s OK HONEY! I love you and I’m always proud of you booboo

    ŽæùN ŁòVêŽæùN ŁòVêVor Tag
  • I am nowhere close age wise (older), but I relate so much. Many of the stuff you went through I did as well.

    blueh9blueh9Vor Tag
  • Yay Daniel! Way to go! Stay safe and be happy. You deserve it!

    NarssissolockNarssissolockVor Tag

    im not a nerdim not a nerdVor Tag
  • *"I have big hands with very wide reach..."* **silence** *"...for playing piano, **-you fricking-** get your mind out of the gutter!!"* 43:44

    Mxstiecal_ XMxstiecal_ XVor Tag
  • 9:37 Ava’s Demon theme comes on and that made me happy.

    BlancRose2BlancRose2Vor Tag
  • Why does this video have dislikes?!?

    10OOXOO0 110OOXOO0 1Vor Tag
  • is dan in the dark void again. *DAN GET OUT OF THERE*

    BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.Vor Tag
  • I got my friend to try on a pair of heels and he didn’t take them off for an hour he loved them so much. I agree with him though, heels are fun!

    Dancing CumberCookieDancing CumberCookieVor Tag
  • Where was this video three years ago when I needed it most 😭. Love you Dan! So happy for you ❤️

    Flynn MurrayFlynn MurrayVor Tag
  • I love that he made this video in a sequinned jacket, it really tied it all together

    somepersonnamed sophiesomepersonnamed sophieVor Tag
  • I LOVE YOU._

    Χρυσάνθη ΒΧρυσάνθη ΒVor Tag
  • 22:18

    Helen YimHelen YimVor Tag
  • Ily ♡

    Bella MariettaBella MariettaVor Tag
  • Dude everyone knew it

    RikistrikiisRikistrikiisVor Tag
  • *A R E W E G O N N A F U C K*

    Jake BelloJake BelloVor Tag
  • Everyone comes out at their own pace and you are of course welcome to the community.❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

    Queen Of the worldQueen Of the worldVor Tag
  • 8:36 *related on a spiritual level my guy*

    panduh boipanduh boiVor Tag
  • The world is pretty messed up with how people can think and how they treat others... Am glad things are better for you now :)

    Theresa WTheresa WVor Tag
  • The 45k people who disliked might need a hug 😬

    Brushes and ButterfliesBrushes and ButterfliesVor Tag
  • This is the best motivational speech I’ve ever heard

    Kaitlyn ApelKaitlyn ApelVor 2 Tage
  • 11:09 isnt that felix in the victory song mv

    Just SaphJust SaphVor 2 Tage
  • 22:18

    Destiny DynamiteDestiny DynamiteVor 2 Tage
  • This touches so many issues. I wish this video could be seen by everyone. I didnt realize how bad school really is until my daughter started 3rd grade.

    Livier07ArteagaLivier07ArteagaVor 2 Tage
  • You are soooo well spoken boi 👏

    MaddieMaddieVor 2 Tage
  • Thank you for pronouncing lmao as “luh-ma-ow” and not “elle-em-ayy-ohh.” My friends tease me about saying it the way you do, so it’s a relief to see that my prononciation is valid (and superior). Also: hell yea!!! live your truth🌟

    LessacLessacVor 2 Tage
    • Saying it as elle em ayy ohh is a crime against humanity,,,

      such trashsuch trashVor Tag
  • 18:30

    toxicsugarplumtoxicsugarplumVor 2 Tage
  • 19:27 - 19:45 I’m intense sobbing, not only because of Dans attempt (but that made me cry for like 20 minutes so I had to pause the video) but because I’ve been in that situation multiple times

    Fall Out! At my Green Chemical PiløtsFall Out! At my Green Chemical PiløtsVor 2 Tage
    • And I’m only 12

      NoahNoahVor Tag
    • Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts me too I have bad depression and it is bad

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  • i love the intro so much

    TheCallousOneTheCallousOneVor 2 Tage
  • I find myself coming back to watch this video again and again, thank you so much for making this!

    Rainbow123Rainbow123Vor 2 Tage
  • the fact that I already knew what a Greebo was is highly dissapointing

    Kirstie CampbellKirstie CampbellVor 2 Tage
  • So this is obviously an amazing video but what I'm wondering a month later...are we gonna get bloopers?

    Heely BillyHeely BillyVor 2 Tage
  • Im gonna write what i think ab the video as i go threw I never knew id get the talk by dan Howell THE G NOTE Oh wow School sucks omg EMO PHASE YESS

    leylileyliVor 2 Tage
  • Are you coming back soon we miss you so much but take as much time as you need, your happiness is the most important thing

    Natalie ANatalie AVor 2 Tage
  • _love u_

    BillieIsMyZaddieBillieIsMyZaddieVor 2 Tage
  • **doesnt post for another year**

    The UnknownThe UnknownVor 2 Tage
  • thanks for helping me understand my unlabelled son

    Helen VivetHelen VivetVor 2 Tage
    • We need more mothers like you, keeping an open mind and being willing to learn 💚

      such trashsuch trashVor Tag
  • nice, I think it is great keep sharing them =D thanks for this

    No Copyright Audio Music Library for CreatorNo Copyright Audio Music Library for CreatorVor 2 Tage
  • I got SO many chills watching this... love you Dan. Thank you for all you've done for us. I hope you find happiness in all you do and all you are

    Rachel DunnRachel DunnVor 2 Tage
  • Aw dan 😪 ure doing great

    Una SebastianUna SebastianVor 2 Tage
  • Ok but he could literally do a TED talk. Please can he do a TED talk

    Marilyn15Marilyn15Vor 2 Tage
  • this was really great and supportive, but honestly, all i want is some more Golf With Friends content

    mia van Zijlmia van ZijlVor 2 Tage
  • Thank you so much for sharing your story.

    Britney ThornsBritney ThornsVor 2 Tage
  • me coming from vidcons night of awesomeness

    sugarglowinsugarglowinVor 2 Tage
  • how long was phils vid...hmmmm

    justin whitejustin whiteVor 2 Tage
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